Day 25
Not a great evening.  I have been up since 3:30 AM with aches and unable to get or find a comfortable position.  Some buttock pain, some calf pain, some thigh pain.  Took 1/2 pain pill at 8 AM.  Who knows why it is..too much WB yesterday, too much time on my feet even though I am only 20 % WB give or take.  Focus towards the positive and move way from this point but embrace the moment for what it is. OK I took another 1/2 pain pill.  I don't need to have the pain completely gone to stop taking medication but what sense is there to temporarily suffer also.  It just feels good to not have my mind just a little bit foggy.
I have been drinking Emergencee as Vit. C is very important in tissue healing and I am thankful my doctor recognizes that.  I haven't had much heavy protein so last night tried a meat upon meat pizza thinking it would fill me up and satiate whatever is missing.  Where is my head?  Didn't work.  Happiness no matter your situation , is an internal affair.
I go back to the doctor ( NP ) for the 1st visit since surgery on Wednesday.  I am a little worried because I literally fought the insurance company to pay for the entire 28 doses ( twice a day ) of Lovenox instead of the 20 doses.  Starting on Monday I will have 5 doses left.  Part is determined by the blood Coumadin levels.  Normally they stop you from taking Coumadin after 30 days so we will see what their gameplan is.
The hummingbirds still bring a smile to my face as I watch them feed.  It is like they have become family for me.  I am tired of photographing them but not of seeing them.
I have meditated the last 2 days as I have meant to but it took getting a portable CD player which I wasn't even sure they made anymore.  Thank you retro...Target, Walmart, Amazon, etc.
The leg ached most of the evening and I was adamant that I was not going to lose sleep and suffer again so I went back t a full 5mg, relatively low dose, before sleep and I slept and felt so much better.  I felt a little guilty in going back to pain meds but I needed it and it did what it was supposed to