Wednesday, August 6, 2014


Day 13
As I try to sleep at night I try to reposition my leg because stationary positions cause my leg to ache.  I usually just do heel slides.  Around 4 AM in the middle of one of these I got that sharp anterior thigh pain.  It felt like something was twisted and would not "untwist". The pain was excrutiating until I could move my leg somehow to find a way to lower my leg to the bed without.  This was the 1st night I doubled up on pain medication in the middle of the night. I don't know if my knee was turned in or what as I couldn't see it in the middle of the pain and trying to find a way to get out of it.  I suspect that either my hip was adducted or IR.
I woke up still in pain like I had been beat up a little.  I doubled up on pain meds and 1 1/2 hrs later the pain was still at a higher level than previously.  Lifting my surgical limb during walking with the walker was still painful so I adopted a shuffling movement even though I was only putting 10-20% weight on that leg anyway.
I am ready for more good things to happen and for positive progression.  As I am typing I am realizing that my blogs of late are full of reports of bad news.  I am ready for this to change.
 With help of my fiancee, God bless her, I changed my scenery and was able to go out the 2 steps to the deck.  The secret for me is to use the crutches and her to get down the steps then switch to the walker as I realized in the beginning that I leaned strongly to my left to keep weight off the right leg. I sat in a chair with the egg crate cushion then in a Transfer Chair as I need to be able to accept/tolerate more weight on the hip/buttock.  I tolerated this for a couple of hours then came back to my Throne..the recliner. I realized that not only active hip flexion hurts but even more so abduction or movement of the leg out away from the body
We change how far back the recliner goes through the day & this varies the area of the hip that gets pressure.  I still took a pain pill an hr ago but only 1. I am keeping my fingers crossed as the day is going OK so far.  Another shower today and it never felt so good
My plan is to start meditating to sort of push the sensation of pain to the outer realm of  .  I have seen too much research & antedoctal evidence that it really works.  I didn't even try in the beginning as I was mentally scrambling for survival.
About 3:30 is all I can take outside and being without meds so came in and took two.  Meanwhile I  used some of my less pain filled time to start on a couple of projects that I can do a little at a time.
Began to discuss plan since my fiancée's 14 y/o son is coming back from camp.  There will be some impositions on everyone especially since he likes to watch TV & play videogames all day, watch, internet or listen to music all very loudly and I am sleeping downstairs for the moment. I assume I still will be spending the rest of my day hrs downstairs.  Fun,fun, fun . 
Began practicing steps for eventual return to bedroom upstairs.  I had a shower using my fiancée and transfer bench and felt like I was in heaven. 
I began to notice more of a pain in my surgical limb calf even at rest and it was tender but none of the other DVT (clot ) symptoms.  I hope this is just due to overuse of my calf due to not using full wt on my right leg.  I will assess this as the days go on.
I thought I would surprise my fiancée.  I was going to go upstairs without her help when she was in the shower upstairs. She used her radar mother ears and was not so pleased or happy...at all.
After my early misadventures that ended up in pain because I tried to push what I was capable of I told her I wouldn't do anything like that again.  It appears I am more self centered than I thought.  It never crossed my mind that she is scared because she cares about me.  I know I am bored and frustrated because I want to be tomorrow today but she cares about me and it is selfish not to consider her feelings too.  It is hard to ask for trust when I don't give her reason to trust me.  

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